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Sunday, March 18, 2012
what's your priority?

My family is my priority. I always put them in the first place. It could be because I feel most comfortable around my family and that they cannot be replaced. A moment spent with them is a moment to be cherished because no one can guarantee that we can see our family again the next day.

I love spending my time with my family so much that every time I want to apply for a part-time job, I will make my weekends free for my family. I need to spend a lot of time with my family or I will feel so out of space.

Recently, 13-14March I worked for Worldtek for the World Cargo Symposium and for the two days I went out as early as 7am and only reach home at 8pm and my mom had work too. I did not get to see my mom and had a chat over dinner for JUST TWO DAYS, I felt I have missed out alot! I have no idea why am I so paranoid about it. It was just merely TWO DAYS.

And that led me to think about the future, where I have a full time job at hand and I was wondering, logically that, will I spend lesser time with family? And how will that affect our relationship? How will our time be spent together?

I value my family too much sometimes I am afraid that I don't get as much love back from them. And then I think again, does it matter? Naturally the answer I gave myself was, no. Not surprising. After all, giving them love is what I love to do and it doesnt mean I have to take as much love from them.

And recently, I have been disappointed more and more and my heart just broke.
And I kept asking myself, isn't family important to you?

Aren't we're more important than your friends?

Why are you willing to wake up early in the morning just to accompany your friends and NOT willing to wake up ealier to accompany me, your sister?

Why are you so silly to be used by your friends? (Eg. she asked you to wait like a fool for 4 hours straight and she, on the other hand, is not willing to even wait for 30mins for you!)

Why can't you spend some time with me, like going for window shopping or karaoke?

Why would you wanna see the same friends for 7days straight but only have one or two meals with your family in a week?

I keep asking WHY WHY WHY ! I really want to know! I hate you for being so immature. But don't get me wrong I still love and care for you!

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